Tuesday, May 31, 2011

On Being Kissed....

Well Peeps I cannot sleep.
this, my friends, is why I try to avoid countdowns, because otherwise I CANNOT focus on anything else it seems like. Alas I am blogging. Anyway let's get on subject. Recently I have been made known many things that has changed my perspective on life. I have mentioned it seems, on my blog, that life is hard. Marriage is hard. Work is hard. School is hard. BLAH BLAH BLAH WAA WAA WAA right? Like seriously can we give it a rest right?? Anyway I will share with you a few of the things that have made me want to use my energy to focus on other things, one the best nicest girls in the whole world, who I happen to work with, has cancer. When they found it, it was a miracle that they even did, they then went and removed her thyroid and found that she had two other types of cancer that have spread throughout her whole body. She is 21. Throughout the whole thing she has never once complained. She smiles and asks everyone else how they are and actually cares. Another lady who I work with who is kind of like a surrogate older sister for me, found out two weeks ago that she had cervical cancer and had to have an emergency surgery. She was very very lucky but will never be able to have any more children and they had been wanting to quite badly. Instead of being sad she focuses more on how lucky she is to have her two sweet boys who are just perfect for them. There are so many examples like these that I could go on and on about but instead I will tell you this instead. Often it is easy to think that we have things hard regardless of our life situation. And don't get me wrong, we all do. But there are also so many wonderful things that we have in our lives that we can focus on instead of the bad and the sad. Today I am focusing on the fact that in 23 days, I will be able to be kissed. EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. by might a add, a dashing young lad. Wonderful. xoxo

Not bad at all.

Sweet dreams,


Sunday, May 29, 2011

On Being Married, and Staying Married......

So let's talk about the last 132 days.
right? So 25 days sounds like nothing right? Wrong. 25 days seems so much longer than all of the days past because they haven't happened yet. There have been a lot of people saying things like, "Oh this is just like having a missionary!" (ummm, yeah, except we are married so yeah, nothing really like that at all.....) or "having a missionary is so much harder than this!" (ummm nope, not even close don't you worry i know all about that.) Being apart this long has been really hard on us. Individually and our marriage. It is hard to be apart. I am so grateful that we decided to get married and especially in the temple. It was one of the hardest choices that we had to make knowing that no one in Drew's family would be able to be there with us and that broke both of our hearts. Especially his and especially mine knowing that. Everyone says that the day you get married is the happiest day of your life. We would both disagree. There was a lot of sadness that day for us. There were a lot of things going against us but we were in love and decided to make our decision. It has been so hard sometimes, but guess what I have found out? That is marriage. So many people told us we were too young and didn't know what we were doing etc etc. Here is the truth that I have found, no matter what we would have always been "too young" we would have never known what we were "getting into." The other day at work I was talking to two people I work with who are both getting married this summer. We were discussing how long they had dated their soon to be's and how long they will be engaged etc and the guy I was making a smoothie for had a bit of a freak out and said very rudely and very loudly "WHY DON'T YOU JUST GET EVERYTHING YOU HAVE AND ALL OF YOUR MONEY AND GIVE ME HALF OF IT SINCE THAT IS ALL YOU'RE DOING AND WASTING EVERYTHING! MARRIAGE IS SO STUPID...." etc etc add a few expletives and you have yourself a very sad man. The other two were a little shocked and didn't know what to say and neither did I. I just smiled and gave him his smoothie. It is sad though that so many people feel that way. Every day I have middle aged men telling me about their divorces and everything bad in their life. Here is the thing though, even though marriage is hard. Life is hard. And life without marriage after being married is harder. I feel like I can say that only because I have been alone for these past hundred plus days and even though there were times I wanted to pull my hair out, and Drew wanted to go kill things, our lives together are so much better than any other life there is for us. It is so worth it making it work. I can't wait until 25 days!!! CAN'T WAIT!! Honestly we are both more excited than when we were married because we know exactly what we are missing, each other. Although it has been very challenging, it has also been a blessing for us to truly appreciate each other. I see so many people who aren't happy in their marriage or who treat their spouses awful, and it makes me so sad because I would give anything just to have one day with Drew that was just a normal day. I feel like I have learned so much from the distance. I have learned about myself. I have learned about Drew. I have learned about my Savior and the comfort that he brings. I have learned that money, things, and power are nothing. I could be homeless with Drew and we would make it work and would probably laugh about it. I am thankful to be in love like this, and also to have been able to learn to be in love like this. It is all so worth it. I hope your Sunday has been wonderful, here are some marriage/love quotes to make your day a little sweeter, xoxox

"In the enriching of marriage the big things are the little things. It is a constant appreciation for each other and a thoughtful demonstration of gratitude. It is the encouraging and the helping each other to grow. Marriage is a joint quest for the good, the beautiful, and the divine."
--James E. Faust

"Love is like a flower, and, like the body, it needs constant feeding. The mortal body would soon be emaciated and die if there were not frequent feedings. The tender flower would wither and die without food and water. And so love, also, cannot be expected to last forever unless it is continually fed with portions of love, the manifestation of esteem and admiration, the expressions of gratitude, and the consideration of unselfishness." --Spencer W. Kimball

"How sweet is the assurance, how comforting is the peace that comes from the knowledge that if we marry right and live right, our relationship will continue, notwithstanding the certainty of death and the passage of time. Men may write love songs and sing them. They may yearn and hope and dream. But all of this will be only a romantic longing unless there is an exercise of authority that transcends the powers of time and death." --Gordon B. Hinkley

"I have long felt that happiness in marriage is not so much a matter of romance as it is an anxious concern for the comfort and well-being of one's companion. That involves a willingness to overlook weaknesses and mistakes." --Gordon B. Hinkley

"If [young people] would resolve from the moment of their marriage, that from that time forth they would.. do everything in their power to please each other in things that are right, even to the sacrifice of their own pleasures, their own appetites, their own desires, the problem of adjustment in married life would take care of itself, and their home would indeed be a happy home. Great love is built on great sacrifice." --Harold B. Lee


Friday, May 20, 2011

On being kind of pathetic....

Ok friends! Remember that post about how I was once on Oprah! Well I found a clip from my local news station and it really is the best I have as far as proof goes. But if you want to believe me if you're struggling it's here.


See I was once on Oprah I was!!!

That is all for this Friday! I hope you're all having a lovely day!


Sunday, May 8, 2011


Perfect Mom
Cutest ever right?
The Good Advice Mom 
The Silly Mom 

Happy Mom

Fun Mom

Nice Mom 

The Dreamer

The Goof

The Sweet One and Tiny

The Soon To Be 
When Heavenly Father put me on the earth he knew I would need a LOT of mothers in my life. That is why he gave me The perfect mom. Who is my very own and perfect for me.I'm funny because of her, I know how to understand others because of her, I communicate because of her, I love because of her, I care about others because of her, I want to learn because of her, I want to be the best because of her, I prioritize because of her, I have a love of the gospel because of her, basically all of the good things I have are because of her. But, He also knew I could never be exactly like her and that I needed lots of good mom's in my life. Now that I am married to Mr. I also have 2 other fantastic Moms! The Great Advice giver always has good advice for any instance and has the biggest heart that she blessedly passed on to my love bug. The Silly One makes us laugh and always brings good conversations. She listens and cares. Now the other mom's on this page aren't actually my Mom's, but basically. They're my older sisters and so that basically means they are my mom in one way or another and are all good examples to me with their wonderful mothering skills. The Happy Mom has a lot going on at her house. Two little bundles of fun under two years old. Whoa yeah! But she knows exactly what she is doing and is great at having fun and laughing at the things that would really p me off. She is a good example to me of perseverance and living the life you want. The Fun Mom cracks me up. She lets her little man run around naked which is right along with what I think every person should do. She is so sweet and is a good example to me of enjoying every day moments and realizing they are important. The Nice Mom is most like a mom out of my sisters. She really has taken care of me these last few months and I appreciate that so much. She is a good example to me of making things work and of helping people with a good attitude. 

All of these mother help influence me everyday. Each is an example of True Womanhood and they know their divine role. I love all of the mother's in my life and am very very blessed to call them my own and also, to have their example in my life. I hope you all had the very best mother's day ever! Nice One, thank you for letting me spend it with you. Love you all so much. 



Ps. Mom especially Happy Mother's Day because I'm still not a mom yet right?? :) HAHAHA!! 

Monday, May 2, 2011

On Being in the Right Place at the Right Time because it is the Right Thing

This thought has been going through my mind today in, (of course) an odd way.

Lately things have been hard. I will be honest and say that most of the time when my life is the very worst no one ever knows it. I am actually a very private person about certain things in my life and that is great but sometimes it causes me problems also. When I say hard I mean considering quitting my job, not doing summer school, and moving somewhere else. So let's get started with the reason for this post eh?

When I came to Utah State University as a young freshmen learning all about how to be an ambassador we were once having a serious conversation that mirrored kind of what a testimony was like, things like "when I was in the library on this day, I knew I was supposed to be here," and also things like "I will never be able to feel this way about any other University because I know this is the right one for me." You following what I am saying? It is almost like utahsinlges.com meets singles ward. HA! I rolled my eyes so hard when I heard things like this that my brain stopped working. But I will be honest there was a time last semester when I was walking to my class, about fifteen minutes late, it had been a bad morning, and I was just worn out, and I was walking towards the business building when the sun just shone down right on the mountains and I thought distinctly "I'm supposed to be here." I know that seems weird and I thought so too, but at the time I was seriously considering dropping out of school. Now I understand that feeling. I am so excited about my major and my minor now that I cannot imagine not being here. I was in the right place at the right time and now I am able to have the right thing for me.

Another one, my job, I really enjoy my job. I think I say that a lot on here which is funny because I literally sometimes feel like i'm going to have a panic attack because of my job. Love/Hate relationship I guess. A few weeks ago though I was in a class and I was discussing with a friend some different options because I am worried about finances when Drew gets home with him going to school and two cars and more insurance and food, etc etc, and I said that I was thinking about trying to find another job. The girl sitting next to us turned to me shocked and said "But you love your job!!" This is funny/ironic A. because that girl was soooo eavesdropping. B. because that girl does not know me at all. and C. because it is true that I love my job very much and I always used examples in that class of what I had learned at my job. Later this week I went to work and since I had been visiting the Hubster I had been gone for a while. I know the majority but there are a few that are my "specials" for one reason or another I just feel like they need to be taken care of. I was struck up in the middle of a conversation with one of them and he said "I have missed you! I can't imagine what it would be like if I came and you weren't here to bring the sunshine to my day!" (heart. melted. 70+ is the greatest age a man can be right???)

I was talking to one of my very closest friends and we were discussing life. She still lives in beautiful Boise which I miss so much. I miss so many people. I miss my old life. I miss the familiarity of living there and driving and just knowing things there. We then were discussing different friends and what is going on with people and I was struck again with how deeply I need to be where I am. If I wasn't here and had stayed at home, even though I love it so much, I would be missing out on the right thing for me.

Although it is a bittersweet feeling it is also somewhat reassuring to know that even though there have been times recently that I have felt like I can't get out of bed, that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing.  That is all.
                          I am grateful for His reassurance when I need Him there the most.