These days I don't really believe in love. I don't trust anyone. I don't trust anyone's intentions. I just feel like everyone only cares about themselves and the idea of caring about someone more than myself again seems really, really foolish. It's when I feel like this that I am the most grateful for the gospel in my life. Even though I don't feel like I deserve the blessings that I have received in my life, or that I continue to be blessed with, I am reassured that I have a loving Heavenly Father and Savior Jesus Christ whose love is one that I know my mortal mind wouldn't even be able to understand. I am grateful for the constant encouragement I feel from them even when I feel that I can't do it anymore. Not another day, not another step, not another fake smile, not another anything, I am lifted up and can continue. I am also grateful for my family, most days I feel like somewhere up in Heaven when we got to decide what families we would be with, I must have begged and begged to be with mine because I don't deserve any of them one bit. I am very blessed, even on my hardest and worst days. There is always something to be grateful for. M